mihoshi23

>.>()...Its been nearly a year since I last poked at this....I can't believe I'm actually considering it again.......

so many ups and downs
My heart's a battleground
I need two emotions

Well, lets see if I can't begin with Kingdom Hearts II.... Two words...beautiful...erm..thats one word... Beauty...full.....thats two... The opening song Sanctuary, a beautiful and haunting mellody which isn't lost even on the likes of me.... and, its lyrics tie nicely into the theme of the game....which somehow leads to a homoerotic scene with Sora and Riku....anyhow...another masterpiece in the saga...annoying final boss..es....but, all in all a nice continuation of Chain of Memories... Twilight Princess was delayed, so, that had better be the game to end all games when it finally does come out.

What's left of me
What's left of me now
My fears, my lies
Melt away...

Anyhow....thats all you're getting from me for now....whatch this, I'm not even spell checking....its MY live journal afterall, ne?

In you and I there's a new land,
Angels in flight

Guess whose back, yes, back again, cables out so, tell a friend.

Well, the new zelda for gamecub finally has a name...The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess....

so far, its impressive..but has me concerned....it seems more like a LotR MMORPG wanna be..but, since I wasn't actually at E3, I won't judge it till I play it....

On another note..my PC has perished..^_^().....turn out the IDE controller isn't working properly..though I haven't popped the batery yet to see if it clears up...I'm just glad I was able to fix my hard drive...as it completely screwed up the partition tables on my main drive.

Am up and running, but only on the auxiliary PC..none the less, my projects will still continue unhindered.

Guess thats it for the big news..if you're a Zelda fan like I am..hunt down the E3 vids...but, more than likely you've already seen them LOL

Wow..I haven't written in this thing in ages....well, nothing up much...been rather busy...and rater stressed...horny, sexually frustraited..stressed..got a lot on my plate here..just trying to divide it up...with my PC slowly failing and my funding falling through..its tough..one must prioritize..

Ebichu....and I don't mean the brand of beer Misato drinks....but is definately GAINAX related ^_~....

Other stuffs...hmmmm...can't sum it up...but at least the people whome may actually read this will know I'm not dead .....erm..yeah, the whole 5 of them..2 of course being my of course generated by my own imagination ^_^()

Have you ever been watching gay asian porn..and find yourself saying..gee, I wish I had someone to give me a blow job about now...

Its odd....going to the video store...to the book store...and suddenly seeing anime and manga every where...back in 95, some of the last years of the term "Japanamation" just finding a store with Ghost in the Shell was a joy...let alone anything else...anime was like gold back then, even 96 97 was like hunting for the end of the rainbow, or at least here..I remember the first anime I ever saw back in 93 was fist of the north star, and it tough me one thing....the japanese were crazy and all their cartoons were violent...finding quality..non-sex, non-violence donimated items were impossible....but, thats not what this is about, for now a days, even Shonen-ai themed items are easy to find in your local Best Buy...anime has suddenly and seemingly rocketed into the mainstream here in america...which has lead me to wonder why there was such a dead zone for so many years....would be interesting to get others comments on this..you input and junk...anime and manga magazines are also widely abound...even a US publication of NewType is widely available..even appearing in our Wal-Mart magzine racks...I just find it very interesting...but I'm odd that way >.>()

>.>....................nothing constructive to say what-so-ever....I am majorly pissy right now...so...yeah...>_<#

For the past 4 days, we has been hammered by storms..finally we get a break, but its suposed to pick back up yet again @_@

So, I got to make a chicken sandwich...but, I'm in a rush, so I put the patty in the nuke, and while its getting zapped, I get out the bread and the honey mustard, and a knife of course, and set it all out, well, remember, I am pressed for time, so I felt a bit careless and lay the top part of the bun on the edge of the toaster over..and slather it with honey mustard, now, the microwave beeps, so, I rush to get the chicken patty out and set it aside, then goto slather the bottom bun, well, I bump the toaster oven and you know what happened??..Lip, the top bun toppled off and SPLAT, right onto the side of the iron..and slid down leaving a trail of honey mustard behind on the side of the iron like some anime guy who just got shot full of holes and slid down the wall leaving a thick bloody trail behind him..only..with honey mustard instead ^_^()...so, I had to clean off the iron and reapply the honey and tangy goodness to my bun ~_~()

And thats the top story of today.....>.>()

I am ill today....sick as a dog rather with aches and pains, and the sensation to toss my cookies...

>.>()...oh thats right, I have one of these live journal things don't I...well, with being pissed off, have a downed and very unstable net connection, it must have slipped my mind, so, I'll have to save my ranting about our so called president later...

Blood for oil, a rape of our nations sacred documents to implant descrimination, and now cashing in on 9/11 for his own personal gains...if he gets 4 more years, I'm leaving this country and never looking back...so, next stop, Tokyo!

Never wanted to be born here in the first place.

=P

To friendship…….

See you space cowgirl
Sometime, somewhere……


Hard Luck Woman came on again tonight…that episode always makes me sad and depressed yet happy at the same time…and. Already on top of my own lingering depression it makes for a remorseful sensation….I can’t foresee the future..and that always leaves me to worry about what is going to happen…fearful even at times…..the thing I hate most in this world is being alone….and yet, I have a hand in making that happen..a slight misplaced word..an unforeseen event… a mix-up or miscommunication. and it could all be over…..even years of speaking can be over in an instant…these things make me think a lot…I wonder if the friends I have now will still be with me in 5 years…or even in the next year…moving away and even drifting apart frighten me a lot and force me to worry…I love and care for all of my comrades deeply and hate nothing more than to lose them….its happened once before..I lost a friend due to loss of net connection..which always makes me fearful…when I finally got back on…gone…not sure where she is now…or what happened…just gone…it always gives me an uneasy feeling when I fight with a friend, or they become displeased or unhappy…I have more friends now than ever and I feel almost whole…a feeling I’d never felt till now…I owe that to thee people whom I still like to think is very dear to me…hell, they saved me from self termination….being a lost soul, one such as myself is only felt worthy when someone else takes worth in them….had I never met these people, I wouldn’t still be of this realm….

Friends are good to have….but they are both a blessing of great joy, and of great sorry and heartache….for when you become close to someone a bond forms…a relationship with that other person….which means they can be easily hurt…but, nothing hurts more to me than neglect from someone closest to you…I get lonely easily…as its my worst fear…but, in the end I am always alone…being a lost soul I have learned that one is never belonged to forever, once someone tires of you which always happens, you are dropped like a bad habit….I had eventually accepted this…but…I am beginning to forget..or deny this fact as I am once again growing too attached to certain friends who will eventually leave me….and that’s the problem…I can’t forget…I remember every friend I’d ever lost and still think of them dearly…often wondering of them or even searching them out again…such pain can lead one to become lost….drive one to madness even….but, I try my best to move on…despite this fact, it doesn’t stop me from breaking down so very often…some things just get to me….and Cowboy Bebop episode 24 is just one of those things…normally I avoid things that remind me of events I try very hard to forget…but, the episode is so good that I have to watch…and keep watching..its one of my favorite episodes….but, it does lead to moments like this……….

Anyone who has made it this far into my mournful rant, I thank you for your time…but….its hard to tell who ones true friends are..except through the painful test of time….does one stay by you through tough times?...or does one dump you, or brush you aside?....I get so worried about these things at times I just break down and cry…not only that but, I wonder if I myself have been a good friend..have I done those things?...When someone has to ask if I care…that gets to me most…because it tell me that I haven’t shown that I do….and it hurts even more when it comes from two of the three I spoke of earlier…it hurts so badly….and it leads me wonder if I do care….it makes me wonder if I should just give up and wonder alone again as I had from the days I left my abusive last boyfriend who left me to perish…or continue onward…..being hurt isn’t a good feeling and I promised myself to not ever hurt anyone…but I have…and I hate myself for it…

Eh, I should probably and stop before this turn into a boring biography… I have more Photoshop work to do anyhow…staying busy always helps me to keep my mind off of things like this…..

Helps me to ease my mind…

To everyone I've known, know now, and will know...I do love you all....

Eep, the power went out...from 9:15PM-1:45 AM....I went to sleep through most of it though ^_^()

Well, thats the big news of today...

They say backing up is hard to do, now I know, I know that thats true, don't say that this is the end, instead of breaking up again, oh we should all be backing up again...

^_^() Thats it...nothing more...

Well, yet another Bad Sector has blemished my C: hard drive...that makes 5 total....scan disk has advised that this is impending doom for the drive which is only 5 years old, but, they do get a work out...I've now made a mad dash to backup all current data that hasn't been backed up yet from the drive, you know, favorites, e-mail, and such....anyhow, if I seem to go AWOL for a bit, that means my drive has died ~_~()...I am currently looking for a new, good 4 GB HD to replace this one, perhaps even a 6 GB HD....I'll be looking up all the computer outlet stores in the area as the big wigs only carry new whopper HDs, like 120 GB and 200 GB, which I don't need for just an OS, and are far too expensive for me right now, not when I plan to overhaul all the systems within the next two months, I just need a good 4 or 6 GB HD..sheesh...

anyhow, wish me luck.....

>.>() Look whose neglecting his Live Journal ^_^()

Nothing really to report, expect I did find out that Ciro was okay, just been busy, that is a big load off my mind, other than that, been working on my game, and trying to polish up my website...Thats about it so far...nothing much else, at least what I can recall at the moment...I did have someone give me a brown leather jacket, I prefer black cause I really have nothing that goes with that nice 70's brown, but, it was free and will due till I get my leather outfit.

Anyhow, thats all to report right now...

Ciro hasn't been on for the past couple of nights...not sure as to what that means....I hope he's okay...

Nothing to report on today...Played Majora's Mask, went to bed....thats it..

Sad to see it go, but what a ride its been...thats right, went to see Lord of the Rings:Return of the King last night...and I must say I greatly enjoyed myself..I laughed, I cried, I cringed, I eew'd...all in all, a fantastic end to an amazing trilogy....my favorite part was wen they goto to the city of the dead place, and then the ghosts help them..I liked how they did the ghosts, hope they talk about it on the extended edition when it comes out...

as for Christmas, it was rather uneventful...went over to my grandmothers..the family is considerable smaller now, with the deaths and whole falling apart thing, so, was just five of us there to eat and open gifts...nothing much...

Anyhow, I guess thats it..I suppose I can always update if I think of more.....ja..time for Teen Titans rerun ~_~()...

And all through the house, not a creature was stirring, well except for maybe the fish, but they're always doing something....oh, and of course myself...


Yeah, yeah, I know its early and that technically it tonight, but, it is the 24th, and the sun isn't up soooo...=P


Well, today was semi-productive, I got a few small projects done, but, its the big ones that really matter..I'll finish them someday...not much else happened today...erm, yesterday..so, thats it...move along, nothing more to see here...